let me tell you something

what is that

this isnt meow

words i say often

interjection is my best friend

trust not

the corners of your eyes

believe not what they are selling you

that guy from high school subbed to your of

what the hell

measures of separation are important

    frosted window sill

few breaths from sleep

open mouth and free flowing drool

the ceiling looks like holes and mold

and the things i say are stand up for uninterested crowds

my fingers

are pliable but not independent

is that gout or paranoia

drugs or deprivation

my body

is coalescing into something greater

emulsification of dyke night and bite marks

walking contradiction

i can't figure out quite when freaky got hot

and maybe it still isnt

december

 everything frosts over

hands too

fingers shake and knuckles gesticulate

particular twitches come from Abilify

others from the creatures in my veins

hands

two

thats how many i have

one for the railing 

one for holding doors

my hair is good for two things

it keeps me warm and finds me a bed

put my swag on

i meticulously curate my appearance 

if i didnt they'd ghost me

cold snaps in ogden

id eat flesh for snowpants

not for me

id hand them out

i have a bush i like sleeping in anyways

shrooms w ricky after dark in the daytime

his eyes are wells i suck his soul from

angel eyes my fuel for pain tolerance

intensity is cheerios in a dog bowl and mauled necks

tell me about your lover

she seems like a chill hang

see u monday

u r pain incarnate

a closed fist to the jaw

frost on my face

bruises on my neck

i am

a monsoon

of chinook wind and irritation

splinter in the thumb of landlocked cities

i bring the ocean with me

worry not about probability

mess is resistance

we are snapped timing belts 

bad luck is brewing

god is ur spit in my mouth

i am worshipping u while u worship false idols

scratching alberta bingo to bus to u

i am

the taped up cigarette in my jacket pocket

you are the university convenience store lighter catching my edge

ur art looks like what i used to carve into my skin

isnt that cool?