this is another poem i wrote recently lol its also rough be warned

I hunger

To eat once without feeling hunted

I am a starving creature

In my assigned seat at the dinner table

He’s at the head, of course

Dad

Feeding his family a manifesto on post birth abortion and damn immigrants

While his steak gets cold

I hunger

For a single conversation where I am not the expert

For breaking bread with someone who has no questions about identity

Or bathrooms

Or those damn transgenders invading women’s sports

Can I eat?

Or am I wrist deep in my own throat

Digging up bile and statistics on bone degradation

No animalistic posture to prove my point on pelvis rotation

I’d eat their skin from under my nails if I didn’t gnaw them down last night

Licking up blood is all I ate today

I hunger

For a meal that doesn’t dig its way out of me

Up where it came or cut out with a knife stolen from my girlfriend’s parents house

A meal that nourishes me without inflating my stomach

One that pulls me up from being hunched over a plate

Or a toilet seat

I hunger

For banger twitter posts and onslaughts of onlyfans subs

My stomach is empty, hollowed out

And waiting to be filled with shallow validation

From rotten men cursed by eternal shittyness

Porn brained losers corrupted by the manosphere

A visceral hatred of women born wallowing in high school rejection

Their nazi origin story

Your plate is empty

They say to me

Standing over the starving creature

It's only evidence of humanity is a matching tattoo of a starfish she got with her runaway lover

She knew it was bad for her hair and skin

To purge more than she peed

And to claw at dad

And to forget to bring moisturizer to the psych ward

But she didn’t care, Did she?